Laugh in my face, so pleased to desert me...

Why has the sky turned gray? Hard to my face and cold on my shoulder. And why has my life gone astray? Scarred by disgrace, I know that it's over because I'm falling down with people standing 'round. But before I hit the ground, Is there time? Could I find someone out there to help me? Howl at the wind rushing past my lonely head caught inside its own motion. How I wish it was someone else instead. Howling at all this corrosion, why did the luck run dry? Laugh in my face, so pleased to desert me...
It's been how many days since my horrible I-A-N week? I don't care anymore. gosh I've actually decided to give up on everything cos I always lose it in the end. Yeah I said too much again, Yeah I pushed too hard again. And I wanna start but when I always lose it in the end. Stupid once again you wanna be my friend and I'll push too hard again, always lose it in the end. I don't know how I will let you go, how I can let you go...

I mean I've been here before, there is no why, no need to try. I knew he was going to reject me, maybe not twice, but i knew it. I don't even care any more because after Ian there is no more guys* at high school for me.

*guys that I will be into ever because I can't be into guys below my grade or on my grade. If I date a guy below my grade, people will laugh (depending on who it is). I can't date a guy who is in the same grade as me because all of those guys are immature.

But life's no storybook, Love's just an excuse to get hurt.